Break-ups

Lately I've been thinking a lot about break-ups, trying to figure out why it hurts so much. What is it that keeps us awake at night, what is it that makes us wonder for hours, feeling insecure, where does the doubt come from? Why do we try to remember all the words that was said and all the things that was done? But also what is it that hurts the most about a break-up?

During a relationship we open ourselves up to another person, showing good and bad sides of us, telling secrets, stories about our childhood, tell each other our dreams, good and bad expiriences, maybe even about pain we felt at some point of our life, or pain we still carry around because of our parents' divorce or because we got neglected by one of our parents. All in all, we share the most private thoughts and things we might not tell others.

By sharing love we become closer, opening more and more up, showing feelings that we used to hide or feelings we never knew we could have for anyone. We discover new sides of ourselves and suddenly we realize that we've found our soulmate, because we develop ourselves together and connect on a level that makes us high. We can talk about anything and we're so sure that our partner understands us, so we begin to think that he/she feels absolutely same about us.

When love is on its highest level, we can get extremely vulnerable and emotional, but most of the time we are just happy. That warm feeling of happiness and joy that makes us forget all around us.

So when the day comes, the day we decide to go our separate ways, and the time right after, there will be emptiness. Something's missing. Who are we gonna talk to? Tell about all our hopes and wishes? Discuss our problems and the daily stuff with? Who's gonna be there when we need a shoulder to cry on or be happy for us when something really great happens? We might even feel the urge to contact that one special person, just to talk, but then change our mind knowing that the person don't really care anymore....

At the time it seems like nothing and no one can ever fill out the emptiness inside of us, who will ever be able to take his/her place...