Once in a while I can allow myself to be childish and jump around like a 5 year old, being free of worries and obligations, feeling safe and having a good time, that’s when the kid in me comes out.
Most of the time I have to be a conservative, in control, responsible person, because that’s what is expected of us, grown up people. There are certain requirements and standards we have to live up to. A certain type of behavior is expected by our surroundings.
That’s the reason why the 5 year old Susu only comes out when she feels safe, when the person she’s with won’t judge her weird and childish behavior, won’t call her immature and stupid, but show her that it’s okay to let emotions come out and feel free to do whatever she wants. I’ve noticed that the people I can allow myself to be a kid with usually have to be stronger than me, they have to be in more control than I am to be able for me to let go and act like a crazy kid. They have to be nonjudgmental and strong individuals who won’t care what others may think and the attention they might draw to themselves. This is when I can be really funny, acting like I don’t care about what tomorrow might bring, I’ll climb up a hill or a tree, jump up and down, stop up and smile when I see a swing in the park and run towards it, fall and scratch my knee, but get up and laugh of how silly I can act.
It will be 1993 again and the 5 year old girl, who used to be such a tomboy, will be throwing snowballs outside, teasing her big brother, and hiding behind mom when she gets scared.
Most of the time I have to be a conservative, in control, responsible person, because that’s what is expected of us, grown up people. There are certain requirements and standards we have to live up to. A certain type of behavior is expected by our surroundings.
That’s the reason why the 5 year old Susu only comes out when she feels safe, when the person she’s with won’t judge her weird and childish behavior, won’t call her immature and stupid, but show her that it’s okay to let emotions come out and feel free to do whatever she wants. I’ve noticed that the people I can allow myself to be a kid with usually have to be stronger than me, they have to be in more control than I am to be able for me to let go and act like a crazy kid. They have to be nonjudgmental and strong individuals who won’t care what others may think and the attention they might draw to themselves. This is when I can be really funny, acting like I don’t care about what tomorrow might bring, I’ll climb up a hill or a tree, jump up and down, stop up and smile when I see a swing in the park and run towards it, fall and scratch my knee, but get up and laugh of how silly I can act.
It will be 1993 again and the 5 year old girl, who used to be such a tomboy, will be throwing snowballs outside, teasing her big brother, and hiding behind mom when she gets scared.
I had this feeling back in February, when I went playing mini golf with a friend. I was laughing and for a while the time just stopped, I forgot everything around me, what I need to do, where I have to go. I was the kid who was enjoying a game, no worries about fitting into a world of responsible and irresponsible grownups. I had fun and that was all what mattered.
I really loved it so much sou ... but my question here is ... do you think that we can just let this kid inside us stay outside and be our 'default' feeling..
ReplyDeleteor life influences should always make us 'straddled the fence' ?!
Thank u sweet Adam!
DeleteThe way I see it.. Due to the life we live as adults, we cant let the kid out all the time, but it comes out when ever we feel safe and secure.
You cant be a mix of boths in your everyday life, but once in a while the kid will come out.