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Been alone for 10 days now, watching my parents house while they are on vacation. God, it is lonely out here, just me and the kitties.... But i've been busy reading, writing, watching movies, going out with friends, studying and so on. Also painting some walls, which was fun :)
I have a lot of things going on inside my head, but I'm not really ready to talk about it yet. The only thing I can say is, I'm planning a photoshoot and a trip to Russia this autumn. I can't even imagine what it will be like. I haven't been there for 9 years. Feels like forever.
Haven't seen some of my family members for 9 summers and 9 winters. I wonder what it will be like seeing them, walking down the streets, feeling the magic of Saint Petersburg, my beautiful city. I miss it. A lot.
That's kind of why I wanna go. I want to see it from a grown-up point of view.
I was still too young back then to understand everything, now it's different. And it's about time.
Besides I miss my dad! It's been almost 3 years since the last time I saw him, and even though I don't wanna admit it, I need him. Not sure in which way, but I just need him to be around. Like when I was little. Very very little.
I've spent too much time away from people I love. Now I have the chance to bring some changes into my life. There are people I really care about, who are miles and miles away. I need them. I need them to be a part of my life.