There was this person, who told me, that I am old and boring. I started thinking about it....
The first people to welcome me into this world besides my parents, were my 6 year older brother, my unmarried aunt and my grandma. I had two cousins and they were 6 and 10 years older than me. There were also some of my mom's friends kids, but they were all older than me. My brother and I didn't go to kindergarden and I didn't wanted to play outside with the other kids, even though my mom really tried to make me play with them. But the only people I wanted to be with was my mom, my brother and my 10 year older cousin. So I didn't have any friends until I went to school.
School in Russia wasn't easy, rules, rules, rules. School uniform, lots and lots of homework and poetry that I had to memorize. The first friend I ever got, was my brothers best friend, they went to same class.
So this is how it all started, I was always hanging out with people much older than me. They were all so interesting and they knew things I couldn't even imagine. I spent hours and hours listening to my aunt telling stories...Same with grandma!
When I became a teen, I started seeing guys who were in their 20's.. I searched for advice, guidance, protection. I wanted to be just like them. All grown up. So I did things I was way too young to do or understand. I never wanted to be around people my age, they all seemed stupid and immature to me, so my best friends were girls and guys who were all 5-6 years older. So even though I was 14-15 years old by the time, I actually felt like I was 20-22... It was fun, I had my wild days and now at the age of 24, I'm looking back and I feel much older than I am.
But I'm not old and neither boring, I just don't have the need to try everything and test my own boundries, I did that 10 years ago.... I know what it's like to party until you drop, to get drunk, to hit on guys driving cool cars or having fancy houses. It's not that fun and it's not a priority anymore.
I like being who I am today, but it doesn't mean that I can't have fun. I like to party, I like to drink and I like to act all crazy, just not all the time. Once in a while, it's great.
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