I've been searching online for useful advice on how to heal from a breakup ASAP, checked on advice from my favorite Dr. Phil, then Michael Myerscough on youtube.com + a lot of others.
All of them are saying same thing, "U GONNA BE OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!"I know, but right now I just can't or don't want to understand it and I can't even face the reality. I've been sleeping for days now, only waking up to eat and then back to bed. It reminds me of Carrie Bradshaw in "Sex & the City" the movie.
I know i'm not the only one out there who feels that way, but it's like nothing works for me. All the advice are about keeping yourself busy and going out with friends.... But what if u don't have energy to get up from ur bed, if u just want to hide and can't do anything. And also what if u can't stand being with friends and family, because u feel like crying all the time. The only thing I do besides sleeping is checking my computer and my phone and listening to sad love songs ("One last cry" and "It's not goodbye".)
So the question is:
How do I start over? 'Cause right now the thought of going out or facing friends is terrible for me. I just wanna be left alone. I feel helpless and worthless. The thought of dating again some day is unbearable, my body and soul belongs to him, I can never ever in a 1000 years make love to someone else!!!!!
Unfortunately he doesn't feel same way..... So i'm trying to look at the situation from a new angle:
If he is truely happy and has moved on, why can't I just accept it?????!!!!
Really it would have been great if I could just accept it and be happy for him, but there's a problem. I feel used! I feel used, because we've been seeing each other for the last three months and doing everything a couple does, so now that I know he's in love with someone else and seeing someone else, I feel like a toy...
I keep thinking of my favorite movie "Eat Pray Love" with Julia Roberts. It really inspires me, so I booked a ticket and I'm going on a trip far away from here, to learn about myself and see what's out there for me.
All of them are saying same thing, "U GONNA BE OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!"I know, but right now I just can't or don't want to understand it and I can't even face the reality. I've been sleeping for days now, only waking up to eat and then back to bed. It reminds me of Carrie Bradshaw in "Sex & the City" the movie.
I know i'm not the only one out there who feels that way, but it's like nothing works for me. All the advice are about keeping yourself busy and going out with friends.... But what if u don't have energy to get up from ur bed, if u just want to hide and can't do anything. And also what if u can't stand being with friends and family, because u feel like crying all the time. The only thing I do besides sleeping is checking my computer and my phone and listening to sad love songs ("One last cry" and "It's not goodbye".)
So the question is:
How do I start over? 'Cause right now the thought of going out or facing friends is terrible for me. I just wanna be left alone. I feel helpless and worthless. The thought of dating again some day is unbearable, my body and soul belongs to him, I can never ever in a 1000 years make love to someone else!!!!!
Unfortunately he doesn't feel same way..... So i'm trying to look at the situation from a new angle:
If he is truely happy and has moved on, why can't I just accept it?????!!!!
Really it would have been great if I could just accept it and be happy for him, but there's a problem. I feel used! I feel used, because we've been seeing each other for the last three months and doing everything a couple does, so now that I know he's in love with someone else and seeing someone else, I feel like a toy...
I keep thinking of my favorite movie "Eat Pray Love" with Julia Roberts. It really inspires me, so I booked a ticket and I'm going on a trip far away from here, to learn about myself and see what's out there for me.
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